Saturday, September 07, 2002

Enough... no more!
Put away my Starcraft CD so I won't be distracted. Darn thing can be pretty addictive but the missions are getting damn tough.

Thursday, September 05, 2002

Censored a pretty good Stephen Soderbergh film called Underneath, based on a film noir film from ages past. I liked it more than Ocean's 11, and it has twists and turns aplenty. So it's not ALL duds.. like *shudder* Howling IV.
Ever Feel Invisible?
Do you?

Wednesday, September 04, 2002

Oh Yoko!
Cute comic on Yoko Ono.
Holding Baby
Got a few chances to hold baby at bro's place. Little tyke doesn't like staying still. Mom did the usual "I'm so worried about uncle (eg: me)" speech to baby which irritates me no end. Should try to go later if I'm going over for dinner. Had a good workout at gym and spied 3 ex-colleagues. Didn't acknowledge any of them and think they don't even recognize me. I like to work out anonymously. It's not really the place to socialise.

Tuesday, September 03, 2002

Energy Low
Feeling really lethargic and woke up several times last night. Got more tapes today, including a Soderberg film which should make this batch worth it. Was odd to see the first of my censorship efforts go on screen yesterday; Active Stealth. Actually the money is all right considering the hours and it is more enjoyable than I thought. The movies aren't that bad.

Apt mate wants to check out some of the Chip Bee garden houses. Would be better for her dogs. They have 3 bedrooms for $1400 which is about $300 lower than this place. We still have the lease until February though.

Hope to be 100% tomorrow and tie up the loose ends of several projects, as well as pay a visit to the gym.
Half adrift
Medicine has made me whoozy and I'm slipping in and out of things. Did this stuff really happen? Tempted to hit the pool tomorrow but that'll depend on schedule. Too many things held up, some things have hit the green light, but I definitely need more for sustenance. I admire an ex-colleague who's finally getting his bearings after a horrible startup phase. You definitely need that determination to pull yourself through, and there'll be dark days when you wonder whether what you're doing is the right thing. But I said six months didn't I? And technically not even one has passed. I think I've been spending too much time finding a way to stay afloat rather than constructing something new, but I tell myself I'm laying the groundwork. The raft needs to be stronger before I can cast it out. Right now, it'll definitely break down and fall to pieces. Even I need to be stronger and more resolute. I need that jolt of confidence again and I need to believe in myself and what I'm doing. I can tell you, it's not easy. PK is right. Little victories. I need those REAL bad.
Nightmare working relationships
Boy this has degenerated. But live and learn guess I learnt a lesson even if it cost me a grand.

Monday, September 02, 2002

Tired out
Feeling a bit better but can still feel the virus in me. Guess I watched too many science documentaries; Imagining the little capsule-shaped germs travelling all through the bloodstream.

Sunday, September 01, 2002

I Hate Having a Cole
Yeap... nose feels like a slug crawled into it. Looks like I'll have to stay home and do stuff, which also isn't a bad idea considering how much I've been slacking.
On Not Getting By in Argentina
September already?
Dim Sum lunch with bro, sis-in-law, baby and some of bro's friends. Had fun musing about whether they're going to hang around in Singapore or go back to KL, where things are picking up. After that went home only to get call from Jos who's finally graduated. Still quite a babe even though she's put on a little weight. Think she's still tremendously financially irresponsible, and hope a real job will make her get her act together. Think I'm coming down with a cold. I hope it doesn't impair my writing too much. Looks like I'll be homebound the next two days and don't really mind.